[	Location	|	sasya's room	]
[	Mood	|	lonely	]
[	Musique	|	Sorry, Blame it on me - Akon	]

i just fucking miss you.
*sigh*

[	Location	|	sasya's room	]
[	Mood	|	bitchy	]
[	Musique	|	blindfold me - Kelis	]

Time check : 2.14pm.

I have to be at werk by 1.30pm. But here i am, typing away on the keyboard.
Im gonna start whinning.

<WARNING: WHINNING STARTS NOW.>


I HATE WERK. I HATE HER.
I REFUSE TO GO TO WERK.
But i noe better then not to go to werk at all. Im gonna be dead broke in december if i dont.
And december's not the best time to be broke.


So i go to werk late and i wont have hang ard her fer too long.
Ya, im VERY sure my manager noes what's going on.
But she doesnt give a fuck.
And i have told her way before hand, i cant werk too much with that mofo.


She said she'll do something about it.
But she didnt.

LIAR.

SHE JUST DOESNT GIVE A FUCK LA DAMNIT!!
And so, i shall not give a fuck either.


I need money. Im fucking broke. I have no ciggs and i hafta go to werk w/o any.

NO CIGGS + WERK = HELL-OH-HELL

I wanna scream. I wanna run.
I dont wanna go to werk =(


Ok, gtg get ready fer hell.
tatas.

[	Location	|	sasya's room	]
[	Mood	|	blank	]
[	Musique	|	she wants it (technology) - 50cents feat J.T	]

Click  here fer the Raya pix babes! =)

[	Location	|	sasya's room	]
[	Mood	|	okay	]

Yest's raya was tiring but kinda nice.
Let the pictures do the talking.

THE LEPAK @ MY HOUSE.
It was crazy.

[	Location	|	sasya's room	]
[	Mood	|	guilty	]

Mood: GUILTY.
Period.

How could i actually harbour such thoughts in my head?
Maybe its just the hate, that builds up in me, talking.

But still, i feel crappy right now eventhough u've got ur karma.
Shldnt i be happy? Dance the victory dance?
That's becuz i never wanted u to get hurt.
I DONT WANNA see u hurt.
Afterall, it is u im talking about.

But what can i do now? Its beyond my control.
I wish i could make it all go away.
I wish i could make you happy.

Its sad even after all the the things i try do do fer u is misunderstood.
Good intentions turned bad.
Its been weeks. I almost forgot how it feels like standing next to u.
Maybe now things have changed.
Im very much the same person i was still. Im very confident about this.
You've changed babe.

I shall keep quiet.
You shall say whatever you want and do whatever u want.
Ive lost. But i noe that ive tried my best.





..... i just need to start breathing again.

[	Location	|	sasya's room	]
[	Mood	|	sick	]
[	Musique	|	smile - Lily allen	]

When the table turned, it made me SMILE.
When things took a down-turn on you, i felt the unexpected satisfaction.

Lucky you me.

Nope, i aint a sadist.
I'd just like u to feel how i felt all this while when u said i needed to change my attitude.
U didnt understand a thing i said cuz u didnt feel what i feel.
Now u do.
But i know u still dont get it and u never will.
Self-absorbed. That's the word i'd use.

But i see the brighter side to ur downfall.
U became a better person. Somehow.
More, very much more, lovable.
Like u were before.



THAT DAY DINNER WITH THE ITE PPL.
Sorry guys i was late. I was caught in a bad traffic jam.



And thank you baby fer trying so hard to get off day. Ur effort is very much appreciated.
U made me a happy girl. *grins*


Made a mistake yest.
Took a'lil more then i shld. And now im paying the price fer being stoopid.
My body's shaking and my knees are throbbing.
I wish i can whine at mom and tell her to make the pain disappear.
But she aint a doc. PLUS, she'll never trust me to keep the things myself.
WORSE, she'll never buy me the stuff fer me anymore.
Cant let that happen.

Im in great pain. *sobs*




......when the new month begins, that's when i will start afresh.

[	Location	|	sasya's room	]
[	Mood	|	drained	]

Believe me.
He wont come back.

Now it's just you&me.
But why does it feel like we're both tryng a'lil too hard?
Somehow, something about us doesnt feel so right now. Like something's getting in the way.

Like what?

Anyways, after a week slacking, going back to werk was sucha dread.
I was practically dragging myself to werk. And then i heard bout a fren's case. Breach of trust.
Once bitten, twice shy. She never learn from her mistakes.
I have no other comments.
Good luck.

Dropped by Nad's werk to say hi after i knocked off. Looked fer Mar but she's off today.
But we did meet afterall. She rang me up. Thickened our skin and had lunch at KFC. hahah.
IT'S THAT TIME OF THE MONTH OK!
But there were so many mlys eating so openly too. It made me feel better. hah.

That's about it.
Its just another day fer me. Dull and boring.

I need thrill.
Someone take me on a joy ride.



......when yesterday keeps playing in my head. Have i really moved on?

[	Location	|	sasya's room	]
[	Mood	|	crazy	]

Ugly-ness.